Definition of Insane

Definition of Insane

See,
You broke my heart

And now I am forever chasing the images of you in other people

Your smile in Jay

Your eyes in troy

Your warmth in Ryan

And your unavailability in all of them

It seems like every guy I manage to end up with

They’re compared to the image of you in my mind

And though I can no longer see your face in them

I still know that they could never match you

Or cut through

The expectations you

Have built in my mind

And though I try to construe

Of this, I yet again pursue

Another you

My plans just fall through

Because I don’t know how to

Make do, and like a fool who loves pain

I get another tattoo

To hide my shame

And I continuously complain

About the experiments I have made

Over and over again

But the results are always the same

Einstein was right

I must be crazy

Searching fr you in another human being

Accepting the same treatment

And expecting different meanings

He yells at because he doesn’t know how to express himself

And lies to me cause he’s been hurt before

Again and again

I chase these ballers, shot callers, and sweet boys

And their hearts always end up broken

Because every day that I’m with them

Every night I am forced to remember

That they are not you

That they could never be you

 

I conduct the same science experiments every time

And rack my brain

When my data table is full of the same crap

The same results

And I continuously look for a change,

But then I realize

I am the definition
Of insane