I hear the whispers.
I hear them talking.
Saying hurtful things about me as if I had no emotions, no feelings.
As if I was a statue that they could openly mock.
I see the stares.
I see the side looks, and side glances,
The open sneers.
I see that they hate me.
I feel the eyes.
Feel them as they burn into the back of my neck
Feel their eyes on me in the corridor,
On my way to class, or even on the street.
Waiting,
Just waiting for me to slip up.
To make a mistake.
So I try my hardest
To make myself presentable.
Smile,
Straighten my posture,
Keep my head up
Look forward as I walk with grace
Turn up my music
As I drown out the stares
I hear them talking
I see the stares.
I hear the words,
They say I’m fake
Say that I’m booji
Say that I think that I’m better than everybody else
So I shut my mouth and conform
Reform
Deform
Deform my thoughts,
Degrade my body
Devalue myself.
Because Society says skinny is Beautiful
That it’s acceptable to starve yourself
As long as you stay tiny.
Society Says
No one likes a girl that speaks her mind
So I sit here with
An empty expression
And keep my thoughts at bay
Society Says,
No one likes a girl with her own style
So I conform
And transform myslef into
The "cool" girls in the hallway,
And transform there thoughts into mine.
Society says
That light skin is the “right skin”
That dark skin isn’t beautiful
That its not as appealing
So we,
Run to the store
And shove bleaching cream
And anything else that works
Into our shopping carts
Right next to the babys formula
Inbetween the diapers
Spending thousands of dollars
Just to strip away the melanin
And become an “acceptable” skin tone.
And then we teach our kids
What Society has taught us
And wonder why
The world's mindset
Is so twisted.
Society says,
That there are certain rules
That we must live by.
Society says,
That skinny is beautiful,
More womanly.
And if you’re big,
You’re ugly.
You’re ugly.
But in reality.
Society
Is the only ugly one I see.
Your beautiful.
Just
The way
You are.
And you should never
feel anything other than that.
"All little girls should be told
that they are pretty,
even if they aren't"
-- Marilyn Munroe
